Thursday, December 24, 2009

Why I must have asian babies

Here is a list of reasons I must have an asian baby in the future....preferrably a boy:
-He could sing to me like this....and this, and sorry but this too.
-And dance like this, this, and this.

And the #1 reason....they are just so darn cute. I literally just want to pick up and hug every small asian child I see, though for fear of catching criminal charges I keep these urges in lol.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

"‘Friends.’ A simple word isn’t it? It’s uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren’t that, they’re the people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They’re the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don’t judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You’re tied together by love for the other. Friendship is one of the greatest things in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life."

Sunday, December 13, 2009

"Forget about all the reasons why something may not work. You only need to find one good reason why it will."

-Dr. Robert Anthony

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Quote of the day

"On this day, you read something that moved you and made you realise there were no more fears to fear. No tears to cry. No head to hang in shame. That every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that. That everyone and everything lives on inside you. That that doesn’t make any of it any less real.

That soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than hard ones.

That being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. That the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them. That everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.

That you control that completely.

That the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. That you laugh more than you cry. That crying is good for you. That the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.

That your friends are reflections of the best parts of you. That you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. That dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.

That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. That no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them. That what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such. That the difference between a job and art is passion. That neither defines who you are. That talking to strangers is how you make friends.

That bad days end but a smile can go around the world. That life contradicts itself, constantly. That that’s why it’s worth living.

That the difference between pain and love is time. That love is only as real as you want it to be. That if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around.

That the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. That nothing matters up until this point. That what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. Forever. That rain is beautiful.

And so are you."
-via i wrote this for you

Saturday, December 5, 2009


I just ordered my new Motorola Droid and am like a kid at Christmas. I can't freakin wait for it to come in the mail this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean who doesn't want a phone with a robotic-themed name? And as one of my residents said the other day, "you're married to your phone and cat". Yes, yes I am :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009 usual

So today I updated my list of qualities I want in a older post that I had done here. This list is constantly changing.

And on to the random part of today....can't get this image out of my head. One of the kids I work with was talking about Amityville Horror and the second he said that I thought of this exact picture...and maybe a few from there lol. Ryan Reynolds can go crazy and chop wood at my house anytime.

Friday, November 27, 2009

I need shoessssssssssss

Ok, I'm having a serious craving for some new shoes....
Here's a few I'm looking at. The first ones are adorable.

On a side note, if anyone knows where I can find the beauties below by Colin Stuart in a sz 8, I will marry you...seriously. I've been searching all day.

Friday, November 20, 2009


I don't know what we have, but I know it's different...

I wish I had a dollar for every time I've wanted to whisper something in your ear, or stop scratching your back and just say it. It all began that first night at your apartment (well years before that really but you and I both know that) with the other boys passed out in your living sleeping (snoring lol) while I laid awake next to you all night, blaming my insomnia. It wasn't insomnia. It was me setting limits for myself...saying "ok at 1:40 I'm gonna say it, no more waiting" then "ok at 3:45 I'll say it", and so on. Not knowing what I was going to say, but knowing I was bursting at the seams to say something.

Things aren't so different now. The last time we "talked" it took me hours to accomplish (the same setting time limits scenario played out), and days mentally to prepare. I wrote a script (which of course I didn't follow at all), rehearsed what I would say, and tried to anticipate the worst. When I finally got up the nerve to just say "hey" it was harder than I think you'll ever understand. Don't get me wrong, you're easy to talk to, I'm just very careful what I say around you because I truly care what you think. I present myself as confident and independent, but sometimes I'm unsure and a little scared. Scared you won't ever be ready, or (and this is much worse to me) will be ready to a greater degree than i can ever imagine, and with someone you just met.

I also understand why you're hesitant to get involved with me. I'm "far" away and have always had a certain someone in the background. Well that someone situation has been resolved and the distance is small enough to keep things interesting, fun, and new between us (or at least I think so). We both really like alone time and could benefit from the distance in that sense. I also love how much our mutual friends are endorsing it this time. I think they are finally ready to see you and I happy with someone, and believe maybe we could be that for each other.

I just really wish I could be the girl you let in. I could be the girl you finally give a chance to. I'm trying very hard to be patient, and obviously will continue to since I care enough to write this (and always seem to end up back involved with you somehow). Just know sometimes it isn't easy, but I'm here. This time has already been a lot different (in a good sense) and I just hope it keeps getting better from here.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Monday, November 9, 2009


"I am trying not to tell you, but I want to. I'm scared of what you'll say. So I'm hiding, what I'm feeling. But, I'm tired of holding this inside my head." -Colbia Caillat

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Happy Anniversary B-more

So I moved to Bmore one year ago today. I'm really proud of the progress I've made in the past year, but kinda confused because today was the first day I didn't really want to come home to the city. I've spent the past few days on the Eastern Shore and though I always complain about how boring it is there, I do miss the quiet and slow-pace of living sometimes.

Who knows what this means....

Sunday, October 25, 2009

The times they are a-changin'

"We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person."
-William Somerset Maugham

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
-Reinhold Neibuhr

Sunday, October 18, 2009

"And she finally stopped playing their song, when she realized she was dancing alone."

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

MIA for a bit

I haven't posted on here for a while because I don't really know what to say. The decision regarding my immediate future and living frivolously or being mature, was made for me really. Maturity won. I know this is the best decision in the long run for both parties involved, but that doesn't mean it didn't sting a little. Anyways, I'm back home and in my normal routine: work, work, work, sleep, housework, work again. I am trying to make more time for my friends and for myself even here lately. Blah blah's some funny cat/animal pics because they always make me smile no matter what kind of mood I'm in.

the leash one makes me giggle because i once bought a leash for my cat and it went about that well LOL

Sunday, September 27, 2009

My vacation is slowly coming to a close and I've got a lot on my mind. I'm struggling between balancing being a responsible and future-oriented adult and wanting to take chances while I'm still young and able to do so.

Most of it was sparked by an e-mail I received from an old boss. It was just a quick life update, until this..

"You've spent a good portion of the last few years making sure everyone else is happy. It might be time for you to take care of yourself. Just a thought."

Ouch....I know it's true, but that comment sent my head into a tailspin. What do I want? What would make me the happiest? And, if I didn't have anyone else's views or feelings to consider, what would I choose?

A friend of a friend here in TX is letting me use her bike today so I can explore the local area a little more since I don't have my car with me. I'm hoping I can sort out some of these thoughts while riding.

Quotes & Pics for Today:

"The worst thing one can do is not to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized - and never knowing."
-David Viscott

"Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go."
-T.S. Eliot

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I <3 Texas

9/25/09 - fishing in the Laguna Madre

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Grown ups have fun too

So last night I went to my first real happy hour, as in those in attendance were my co-workers and we all came straight from work. Considering this is my first big girl job and I'm the youngest in the whole crew, it was a little intimidating. How much should I drink? How professional of a demeanor do I need to maintain? All these questions were swirling in my head on the rainy drive there.

Much to my was just like college (except maybe minus the shots and hooking up...on my part anyways). Alcohol was flowing, laughs were had, and all the stress we had undoubtedly been under all day at work, relieved. So, to sum up this post....Being a grown up isn't so bad after all. I can still get tipsy and say inappropriate things without being chastised or looked at funny. And the best part..get home safely and not wake up feeling like death because I drank too much.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Texas Vacation

In 13 days I'm flying down to Corpus Christi, TX to spend a week with a good friend. I'm really excited and cannot wait to get down there. I understand it is going to be disgustingly hot (compared to MD right now anyways) but I don't care. Things I'm looking forward to: beach days, clear blue water, giggle fits, sea turtles (!!!!!!), not working, sleeping in, cooking dinners together like we used to, South Padre Island, night out in the city, and much much more.

Currently listening to: Pachuca Sunrise (Alias Remix) by Minus the Bear

Sunday, September 6, 2009

A classic Loyka link

I have no idea how he finds these things.......

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


"In life, we do things. Some we wish we had never done and some we wish we could replay a million times. They make us who we are and, in the end, they shape and detail us. If we were to reserve them, we wouldn't be the person we are today. So, just live. Make mistakes and have wonderful memories. But, never second guess who you are, where you've been and, most importantly, where you're going." -Anonymous

"Seven am;
The garbage truck beeps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part.
Could we please just go back to start?"
-Incubus "11AM"
that song reminds me of my old apartment in Laurel

"As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold." -Unknown

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Much Needed Day Off

This week has been absolutely ridiculous. I worked 60 hrs in 4 days. The cherry on top of this shitastic sundae was getting my ass basically beat by an overweight 14 yr old girl last night. Let's just say I came home covered in toothpaste, hair grease, scratches, and sweat. She also yanked some of my hair out and just about broke my right middle finger. Oh and of course this altercation required hours of paperwork afterwards. So, yea, I'm sorta hating my job right now. I think I need an outlet for all the aggression it's bringing up in me, maybe martial arts or boxing or something (me....boxing...haha thats a funny thought).

Anywho, today I slept in and am running some errands. Then, later tonight I'm having an old friend over for a wine and movie night. I'm pretty psyched about that honestly. I could use a distraction right now.

Here's more random photos and quotes from my travels this morning....

"The tendency of aggression is an innate, independent, instinctual disposition in man... it constitutes the most powerful obstacle to culture."
-Sigmund Freud

"The answer to the riddle of how individuals can lose restraint over their propensity to injure others must lie in what is ordinary rather than extraordinary: normal human development."
-Peter Fonagy

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Because I'm bored and feeling a bit down....

During my frequent internet travels I've come across pictures that I like, but don't have a reason for posting on here. Today I'm unloading them, in no particular order. So, here's some pics that have caught my eye in the past couple months, but haven't fit into any postings I've wanted to do.....